ENTRY 10: 03/30/2024 - Going Through It

Gods, what a fucking week it’s been. Exhaustion has firmly set in here at the end of the month of March. Where to start…

Well, as of the 28th, my dog Rosie passed away. Bone cancer had set in, there wasn’t anything we could do. We got her as a puppy, a little over a full decade ago. There’s not much else to say, we’re all still dealing with the loss here in the Metalhead household.

We’re all gonna miss her.

If that weren’t enough, I’ve been working behind the scenes to aid my darling in acquiring some better living arrangements, which has been a scary and exhausting endeavor. At this stage, the process is out of my hands, but I hope forces move favorably going forward on this.

Those two things alone have been enough to throw my rhythms completely out of balance and drain me nearly completely of energy. I’ve become more reclusive in the last few days than I have been all month, and throughout the ordeal I’ve been having some pretty annoying stomach issues, which could be stress or an actual illness, it’s unclear. To say the least, I’m not at my best lately.

What I want the most right now is for April to be the most uneventful, boring month possible.

I’m also missing my little brother, who’s away on a field trip right now. Lil’ man’s one of my favorite people to hang with, and I haven’t gotten my daily dose in too long. In the meantime, I’ve been checking out that show Arcane with my mom, who recently got obsessed with it. It’s pretty good! A fun watch, and endlessly impressive on a technical level.

I guess this is a shorter blog post than I usually make. I’ll probably be closer to my normal over the course of this next week, especially if I can get myself to go to sleep a bit earlier on a consistent basis. The feeling of groggy tiredness seeping through me is decidedly not helpful or conducive to picking back up where I left off. More webdev is in the works for the undetermined future, but for now, I think what I really need is to fall asleep in my girl’s arms.